Day1 part1

27Oct 2013   1:20am 

Last night we had dinner at Applebees, my favorite steakhouse. I wanted to check on the menu to order steak because I was very hungry from work. But I had a second thought. If i will endulge to my hunger, I'm pretty sure I will eat more than what I should consume. So I frank 2 glass of water and grab the stalks of celery to ease my hunger. Eventually I end up eating, 2 pcs of celery sticks, 6pcs of light chips with spinach sauce, 1pc shrimp n 1tbs of white rice. I hope it will continue.

it all comes down to weight

Yesterday, I'm counting the days before the coronation night. I will be approximately 2months and 1/2. super short time to lose weight. I'm frustrated since I'm still way behind the canvasing. My cousin called to remind me about the plane tickets. I remember that will also having a day stay at Boracay after the pageant. So I need to have a swimwear. I try on my old bikini that I have 3yrs ago but hell no! I was shock, Is this me? who is this person I'm looking at? my waist is bulging... my thighs are double the size of my bro's. my arms were like blown up.

As I remember, 3yrs ago I also battled this kind of depression. I was 145lbs at that time and asthmatic. I have been using inhalers and steroids, and I can even climb 3flights of stairs. My doctor then advised my and my parents to join recreational activities. I love dancing, maybe one of my dreams but I'm shy to go out on stage since i'm afraid to make mistake and bounce like ball there. My mom enrolled me to a 1yr gym membership and my trainer help me to met my goals in just 3months I have lost 10lbs and by the end of that year I weigh the lightest ever I had in my life which is 112lbs but then after that reality bites and stressed came in. study,study,study then after graduation... its work,work,work.

I found relieve in food. I dig in to ice cream when I feel sad. I grab a venti caramel frappe when I'm tired at work and Ube Zagu shake as my prize when I get to finish my work at time. and my dad is really a great cook, he always make my mouth water in his dishes so it hard to stay away from a good meal.

But I have to, I have to be healthy, not just because I wanna look good but because I wanted to do more. I wanted to travel the world. enjoys life and bathe on greatest beaches in the world (wearing, of course a 2pc swimsuit).

I hope in that 2 months 1/2 I could lose some more and continue it until I arrive in a desirable weight (that should be around 97lbs, for a 5inch woman like me-which means I have to lose a 38lbs) so goodluck to me....

going back on track

3years ago, I have achieved the body that I have ever wanted. I strive hard to have that, I remember going to the gym almost everyday. I jog for 2 hours in weekends. I stick to my diet, I give up meat and just eat veggies and oatmeal instead. but all of that was gone in just one flash. last year, after graduation, I started to go back to my old self. I stayed at home for a month, I eat and eat and eat... I was a couch potato, I just get out of bed to eat and surf the net after which I lie down again... After a month I got a job at a call center, I was happy at first because it give me a sense of control again. I was active but then, my body got tired of setting. after a year I decided to fix things, to practice what I really wanted in life...
It was not easy, thinking that I'm earning a good sum of money and I have met very nice people there as well. But i have to decide now or never. but then I also realized how I changed through these years. I have gain so much weight about 15pounds or even more. my waist line was around 26 before but now its 31. my arms and legs are like trunk of a tree.
Now, I'm trying to get back to my life... i want to be what I'm destined to be.
I'm fighting, and I'm fighting hard...very hard, and I won't give up.

fitness Nightmare

Sunday

Today, I woke up around 6 and got myself ready to go to QC Memorial Circle to jog with mom. It was fun and tiring at the same time. It had been 3months since I last jog. and it should have been my new year's resolution but it seems I had forgot it already.

I was trying to lose weight for quite some time now, but I always come up with an excuse to go back on my old routine... I fear that I might not meet my goals in time for the pageant. I fear that I'll go up stage looking like an old couch potato dress in curtains (I'll be horrified)... It should be like a dream come true

I'm hoping someone could help me achieve my goal of getting fit and healthy...
I'm trying not to eat so much and just flood myself with liquids. hoping the pounds will eventually go down...

the beginning

this is my first blog, I have created this in two reason....
to relieve stress (from life, family, friends, careers, love, etc.) and to share my tears and laughter, and the lessons I will learn in day-to-day encounter with people and situation.

hope you would like it.....